By Your Side

I must admit that I have not been very good about going to church this summer.  These past few weeks I've been thinking a lot about it and how I had been wanting to find a church where I felt more comfortable than at the other church that I had been going to.  Well, last Saturday night before going to bed I googled 'non-denominational church' near my zip code.  Guess what I found!  A church that was moving to a new location within walking distance to my apartment that sounded just like the type of church I had been praying for.  


So, this past Sunday I woke up and while a little nervous, went to the church and really enjoyed it.  Unfortunately I work the next few Sundays so I will be unable to attend, but I can't wait until I can go back.  Hopefully next time I'll be a little less nervous and a little more brave to talk to more people.  


One song that I've been listening to a lot lately is by Tenth Avenue North called "By Your Side."  It's sung from God's point of view - here are the lyrics 

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)

I often wonder what God must think of my life and if he laughs, smiles, cries or yells "what are you doing?!".  I must remember that nothing is more important than having a relationship with Him and that no matter what I am doing or experiencing He is beside me, invisibly holding my heart and my hand in His hands.  This gives me such a feeling of comfort and strength to make it through my days.