I've realized that over the course of my life, I've defined myself as the shy, quiet girl. Whether I did this to fill in a gap between my funny and athletic sister, outgoing brother or witty brother, or to just be a little more invisible in the crowd while going through school, or if I did this because I was afraid of being something else, I'm not sure. While being shy and quiet are two things that I cannot eliminate out of my personality, they are only two aspects of who I am among many different qualities.
I'm not the biggest Katy Perry fan, but there is something about her song, "Firework," that really strikes a cord with me. And especially meant something to me this weekend when I was surrounded by people both whom I know very well and not well at all and for once I felt like I had no walls up. I wasn't self-conscious about the way I looked, or nervous about conversation, or anxious about seeing certain people. I was really comfortable in my own skin which is a feeling that I am not used to. It felt really good to feel that way.
Just because I've always been the shy, quiet girl doesn't mean that I always have to be the shy, quiet girl. Even though we are now a month into the new year, my resolution is to try to step out of my comfort zone and to live my life outside of those two words that I have defined myself by for so long. In doing this, I hope to continue to get more comfortable in my own skin and to be confident in who I am and what I have to offer those around me.
If you haven't heard the song, look up the lyrics, maybe the words will jump off the page and ignite something in you too.